This is probably the saddest message I will ever write here. Yesterday in the late afternoon, I lost my beautiful wife and soulmate Carolyn of the past 38 years. She passed away in her sleep unexpectedly at home. She had been ill for the past 26 years, having spent 1,836 days in 8 separate hospitals due to her Crohn's Disease, Breast Cancer and a host of other medical problems. I have been her 24/7 caregiver for two decades now and I am totally lost without her. I feel like a ship sailing without a compass.